Let me start by telling you how I got here and what you can expect from me. I have a background in inspirational non-fiction writing (books, blogs, magazine and website articles). Age 43 was a big turning point in my life in every way. For starters, it was the saddest because it was the year my gorgeous-soul-of-a-mom died of cancer. But it was also the happiest and most liberating year because I experienced a huge positive theological and worldview shift.
Shortly thereafter, I went back to school to obtain a double bachelor’s degree from the University of Wyoming in Social Sciences and Nursing, partly because of my deep interest in wellness, disease prevention, and the infinite magic of the human body. And well, mostly because the Universe explicitly told me to do it (more on that interesting story in a future writing). I graduated from nursing school at age 49 and went into hospital nursing for the past 4 years. The last two of those years were spent in Emergency Medicine, where I obtained a national certification in emergency nursing.
Hospital nursing was an educational experience for sure, but I've never been truly invested in sick care or the disease management model of Western medicine. I am very committed to: body, mind, and spiritual wellness (wholeness); empowerment over sick or broken systems, false beliefs, and crippling fears; and lastly recovering our spiritual identity and connectedness as women. All of these working together have the profound ability to give us the life we’ve always dreamed about and can finally step into with boldness and clarity. And this is why I am here now, untethering myself from the system of sick care after 10 years of very hard work—including 6 years spent as a nurse assistant and phlebotomist during my schooling. I have spent tons of hours of research, and obtained much first hand experience in order to focus on what I am truly passionate about: YOU and helping you recover your life to the fullest (photo at right taken my last day at the hospital ER in June 2019).
I will not be working one-on-one with anyone through my website or giving individualized health advice. But I will be very present with participants in my healing and empowerment programs (coming this summer). I plan to be very interactive and engaged in the community to address questions for the benefit of the whole. My role will be that of a guide, which is defined as, “to lead, show the way, look after, guard, to see, one capable of altering course in flight.” In short, I want to inspire as well as guide and teach you how to become your own wise healer through knowledge, insight, and understanding. Which leads us into my deeper story involving one beautiful creature…
Let me introduce you to my friend, Ms. Dragonfly. Isn’t she an exquisitely beautiful creation? For the record, she didn’t start out that way. She was actually born and raised—perhaps even half or more of her life—in a murky underworld, barely conscious, and in difficult conditions. First as an egg buried in a muddy embankment, then when hatched into a nymph, she moved into pond life where she finished out her difficult learning and becoming process in the dark icy waters of winter.
Finally, the spring with all its promise of her emerging wings arrived and here she is, a magnificent product of the growth and lessons obtained during the dark struggle, ready to reflect glorious light upon her shimmering, iridescent wings. Alas! Summer has arrived! Now she will spend the second half of her life flitting about in blue skies in all her breathtaking wonder! Hard to imagine how something so delightfully colorful could come out of such dismal, primal beginnings!
Ms. Dragonfly’s story is my “about me” story. And also, it is also your “about me” story. The low visibility, lonely, and often times depressing struggle of the underworld is exactly the opportunity that provides the beautiful contrast to the arrival of her taking flight. It is where we all must begin, but it is never where we should expect to terminate. It is merely a stage of our inevitable journey of becoming.
In my case, I truly spent the first half of my life—about 40 years—slogging away down in pond life (or wandering in the desert, as some have described). And just about when all of my experiences were developing into compassion, wisdom, and insight, and I was ready to take flight in the promise of spring, I realized my wings had been injured. My spirit expanded, while my body sabotaged my expected upward path.
I know from talking to many women over 40, this is all too common. We are more than ready to fly, but we cannot. For a host of reasons, our progress into the joyful, liberated, empowered light of the second half of life has been stunted. This is where I would like to offer light on your pathway for recovering what is injured, broken, grounded, or still stuck in the mud in order to do what you were made to do: Fly! Reflect light! Show off your gorgeous unique color!
Consider the word “dragonfly.” The original meaning of the word “dragon” from both Greek and Sanskrit was “to see clearly,” or from German, “light.” The word “fly” brings meaning from several origins: “to soar through air; move through the air with wings,” or “clever, alert, wide awake." Therefore, a dragonfly can be a powerful icon of the time in life when we are ready and able to soar through the air on viable wings with great vision, clarity, and wakefulness. What a fantastic time to be alive!
Looking at the symbolic meaning around the world and throughout time, the dragonfly and its tie to water is symbolic of going beyond the surface to understand the deeper meaning of life, self-realization, transformation, and living life to the fullest. The iridescence reveals a woman’s ability to show her exquisite strengths differently, dependent on the perspective of the beholder and need of the moment. From the Dragon-fly site we read other insights.
“The magical property of iridescence is also associated with the discovery of one’s own abilities by unmasking the real self and removing the doubts one casts on her own sense of identity. The eyes of the dragonfly are one of the most amazing and awe inspiring sights. Given almost 80% of the insect’s brain power is dedicated to its sight and the fact that it can see in all 360 degrees around it, it symbolizes the uninhibited vision of the mind and the ability to see beyond the limitations of the human self. It also symbolizes a woman’s rising from [matter] to be able to see beyond the mundane into the vastness that is really our Universe, and our own minds.
"The dragonfly normally lives most of its life as a nymph or an immature. It flies only for a fraction of its life and usually not more than a few months. This adult dragonfly does it all in these few months and leaves nothing to be desired. This style of life symbolizes and exemplifies the virtue of living in the moment and living life to the fullest. By living in the moment you are aware of who you are, where you are, what you are doing, what you want, what you don’t and make informed choices on a moment-to-moment basis. This ability lets you live your life without regrets like the great dragonfly.”
You and I are in a time of life when all our acquired experiences, wisdom, and resources that we’ve brought forth from the deep should be serving us as liberated, vibrant dragonflies who can bring forth vision and hope to the next generation. From the many insights and healing I’ve experienced along the way, I hope to offer guidance to you in finding that reality.
Yes, it is time for us to heal our wings, leave the murky, muddy waters, and together take flight.